Don't Blink....

I am having a rather sad day today. Faith is having separation issues this week. It's nothing new. It's happened before. It's usually always after a weekend or a vacation. This morning was horrible. I ended up having to force her off of me and onto last years kindergarten teacher as her teacher wasn't quite sure what to do with her this morning (insert confused smilie here). I had to go back and have lunch with her. She did much better at lunch. I brought a "Mc D's Happy Meal" with me. How can you be 6 and sad about that! ;)

She has brought Pete up again today. For those that don't know....Pete was our oldest son's best friend, a fourth son around here. He was 19. Pete commited suicide this past July. Pete used to leave love notes all over the house for Faith and he would tell her he loved her every time he saw her. It's hard to type that through teary eyes.....anyhow, she wanted to visit Pete today. We didn't have time. I promised we would go this week. It's so hard to make a child understand death when as an adult I can't understand it myself.

I think I have made the connection though for my dear girl today. My back has been really bad. I have been in bed with ice and heat a lot. To her that's sick. Pete was sick (we explained that depression is a sickness). Pete died. I try to let her know that mommy's not going to go anywhere. I tried to explain it to her but those big green eyes say so much more than she is.

I will hold her, kiss her, love her and read to her and hope and pray that tomorrow is a better day for us both. Because when your SIX your mommy shouldn't have to force you into school and leave you in a puddle of tears. It's not good for the 6 yr old and it is definitely not good for the momma.

and I will leave you with this......Don't Blink . Because your babies do grow much too fast. :(

Tomorrow will be a better day....